Oli - Moli

This afternoon when playing with Reha Olivia turned to me and suddenly said
I like Istanbul Mommy.I like Dilek's house in Istanbul.I missed her.I missed Dilek a lot.

We went to swimming pool before the lunch time.We have been going there regularly for couple of weeks.Olivia is floating very well with her arm floaters .Today when I dived she said"I want to do the same being upside down too." She tried by holding her nose:-)
She is trying to lay down and good ad pushing herself forward when she wants to reach somewhere. She is eating good and sleeping well after swimming.

She is nursing very aggressively in the morning and the nap times.I think because of cutting off nighttime.On Sunday she has been nursed 1:30 hour in the morning :-))
She is not ready yet for weaning completely yet.
Tomorrow is the last day of the class and there is potluck .I baked chocolate & zucchini cake.
Olivia sow it and said"is it for the class? Yum -yum"

My new camera arrived.I need to read and load it right away:-))

Planning to take beautiful summer pictures.

I went to Olivia's room after she felt asleep.I sat down and watched her for a while.Kissed her and took her pillow off toughed it was too hot( many times she is sleeping without).She woke up and asked for her pillow back. I kissed her again.She opened her eyes 3 times staring me.I kept looking at her eyes then I said I love you and kissed her.She said I love you too and turned back for sleeping.

Yesterday she told me " You love all the kids ,You hold them kiss them but you are not bringing them back home-only me??"
I said: No because they are not my daughter ,you are my daughter and they have their mommies to take them home.

Reha and I planning to adopt another child I wondered if she would reject the idea?

One day I am planning ton write my breastfeeding story.
One day I am planning to write my story of "having Olivia "

I think I am not ready yet to stop breast feeding either.It is hard to leave this intimacy.

While I was working ,met a lady who has 4 grown up kids .She told me that she had severe depression after weaning off her kids.

I couldn't understood her back then .Now I do.